tlayudas and internet

I thought for a long time about writing tonight because I am feeling whiny. I figured no one would want to read some lucky jerk who gets to up and move to Mexico complain about the minute details. Then I realized that maybe I would want to look back later and read about those things. Besides, this is the first time I've felt crappy since I was here, and I think I should document it. (Ever the documentarian!)

Today started out innocently enough. Actually, today started out well! My roommate and I went to the market and bought produce and cheese and tortillas, and we made breakfast for everyone. I had had nightmares all night last night, so it was good to get in the kitchen, which is generally a thing that makes me happy. During check-in, a couple of other people admitted they'd also had nightmares all night, which was kind of weird, but made me feel better.

The training today was actually pretty awesome. We talked about popular education, which is a thing I like, and rounded out the day with personal stories from a couple of people, which I also really enjoyed. The not-so-bright side of this is that we were basically "working" from 9 to 9, so there wasn't time for much else, including the photography show I wanted to go to.

I'm also beginning to feel weird about not cooking for myself. I just don't feel like I've been cooking enough and while I'm all for exploring Oaxaca's culinary amazingness, our meals have felt really rushed. Also, since we don't really have tons of money, we're basically eating at super-cheap places, which are easy to find here, but I don't know. It hasn't really been working for me.

I guess today I am feeling the way I felt early on into puppet tour, where I just felt out of place and weird and like there were too many feelings happening, and everyone was being too sensitive. And, much like then, I think this will all turn out great if I just take a step back from being so sensitive and find ways to make this work.

So, you see, it'll be just fine.